3318 Years and Counting
You can never win. Many of our readers
complimented our recent series of Samach-Vav articles,
which address some of the deepest concepts in mysticism
and life in general. Others felt that the articles were
too esoteric and voiced how much they missed Rabbi Jacobson’s
“special ability to talk about the trials and tribulations
of everyday life, and how our spiritual teachings aid
us in dealing with life’s challenges
in a positive way.”
You can’t satisfy everyone
all the time. But you can try. The fact is that the most practical psychological
messages – the ones that help us deal with our most intimate conflicts – are
rooted in the most profound inner mechanics of the soul and the cosmos. The
challenge is to translate these intense ideas and communicate them in accessible
and relevant language without compromising the integrity of the original.
Most of the time these insights can be expressed exclusively in a user-friendly
form, stripped of the inner dynamics that shape the concepts. But sometimes
it’s good to see these ideas in their original form, and study the method
through which we derive the practical lessons from these esoteric teachings.
The Rebbe Rashab may
have anticipated this dilemma. After twenty consecutive weeks of discourses
(beginning Rosh Hashana and continuing week after week (except for Parshat
Miketz) until last week’s Parshat Beshalach), Samach-Vav takes a break for
a few (four) weeks, until it resumes in the week of Parshat Ki Tisa, when
the Rebbe Rashab continues the incredible discussion about the nature of light.
After delivering the
fundamentally profound discourse (titled Vayeilech) which we discussed last
week, perhaps the Rebbe Rashab sensed the need to allow his Chassidim
a “pause” to review and absorb the essential ideas expressed in that discourse,
before he continued on several weeks later.
And so in this spirit,
we take a break from the intensity and unplug a bit as we confront the daily
realities of our life’s struggle.
The last night of his
life the great Chassid Reb Gershon Ber was asked “what do you look forward
to?” He replied: “To a life of no lies and no deception.”
Another Chassid, a ninety-year
old man by the name of Reb Aaron Biyeshnikovitzer, would say: “G-d Almighty,
90 years I have lied; give me at least one day of honesty…”
We live in, what Kabbalists
call an “alma d’shikra,” a deceptive world – and we lie.
Are we actually lying
all the time? Even if it’s true that duplicity may come easily to us, and
that many people live deceitful lives, can we say that all people are lying
all the time? There are truthful people who do not lie. So what did these
spiritual individuals mean by saying that we are living a life of lies?
The mere fact that we
live in a world in which can say one thing and mean another demonstrates that
the world is inherently a “deceptive” one. In a world of truth two-faced behavior
would simply be inconceivable. In a seamless universe, there would be no place
for any inconsistency.
Take children, for instance.
Before they learn the art of deception from “seasoned” adults, children simply
do not know how to lie. The reason is because they do not live in a dichotomous
universe. For children everything is seamless: What you see is what you get.
Try to remember the first
time you lied. You will not be able to. Why? Because it was a completely unnatural
thing, that was not part of who you truly are. As young children, the first
time we hear our parents lie or disappoint us, we simply believe them. (That’s
why abuse endured at a young age has such devastating effects: It wounds our
deepest vulnerable innocence). It takes sustained deception – time and again
– to finally jade our impressionable spirits. Once we accept the “fact” that
people lie, we become liars ourselves, and then we never turn back. Once we
crossover from the world of honesty to the world pf deception, we no longer
remember the previous world of truth, or even the place and time when we crossed
the dichotomy entered our consciousness with Adam and Eve eating from the
Tree of Knowledge. Prior to that fateful moment there was seamlessness flow
between matter and spirit, body and soul – between actions and beliefs. Therefore
Adam and Eve were unashamed by their own nudity. Like newborn children they
were not conscious of their own “egos” and had no independent sense of “self,”
thus their sexuality was seamlessly part of their Divine beings.
After they ate from the
Tree of Knowledge, after they tasted and experienced good and evil, their
innocence was lost, and now they sensed themselves as independent selves from
their source. No they were ashamed of their own nakedness, and covered
themselves. G-d therefore asked Adam “where are you?” (even though G-d surely
knew where Adam was physically): It was like asking someone who you see “spacing
out” even though the person is standing before you. G-d was saying to Adam
“where have you gone, where has your spirit and consciousness gone. I don’t
recognize you anymore. I don’t see your Divine Image radiating from your being.”
When an entity is completely
aligned with its purpose, there is no dichotomy and no room for disunity.
Deception is caused by duality – a result of an entity becoming disconnected
from its soul, its purpose – its essence.
Mystically speaking, the
root of the “deceptive world” originates from the great tzimtzum
– the concealment of the Divine energy that is the soul of all existence.
Once the source is concealed and our independent consciousness emerges, duality
becomes the “norm:” Our agenda is no longer aligned with the purpose of our
So there you have the
beginning of all deception. The first deception of them all is actually G-d
deceiving us humans by hiding His presence from us! The rest, as they say,
is history. Once matter is disconnected from spirit, and form from function,
once we are disconnected from our inner selves – we are living a “lie.” When
we do not perceive the force that gives us life – the very purpose of our
being, our raison d’être – we have the ability to lie to ourselves and to
others. When we don’t feel that we are all part of one integral unity, we
are able to hurt ourselves and others.
Though we can also tell
the truth, we are fundamentally trapped in a world of deceit – intentional
or unintentional – a world where the package can completely conceal what lies
within, and “sugarcoated” images can indeed be killing us.
But therein also begins
our search for truth; our search for our inner self. Our seeking out what
makes us human and the entire universe tick.
Because after all is said
and done, no matter how duplicitous life can be, there is a voice inside of
us that seeks seamlessness and is not at peace with fragmentation and duality.
We are disturbed when we are torn apart by scattered agendas.
with us. Truth resonates; dishonesty does not. We feel at home when we are,
well, at home – when all of us, our inside and our outside, is aligned.
From the day we lost our
innocence, we are desperate to rediscover it. Innocence, childhood, truth,
spontaneity, enchantment, seamlessness – these are attributes we adults seek
out all our lives.
Everybody has their “Rosebud.”
True love and intimacy
– the place where we feel we most belong – is a taste of this seamless flow.
Any experience that unites who you are and what you do feels right.
Any this is the power
of a moment of truth.
Try to remember the last
time you had such a moment? You’ll recall that though it may have been a moment,
it is an eternal moment; one that touched you in the deepest place, and one
you will never forget.
And if you do forget it,
it is only because you have allowed the forces of life to take you back to
the duality of existence.
The secret to all happiness
and fulfillment is to be able to hold on to your moments of truth; to allow
them to carry you through the rest of life when honesty is not always evident.
The key is to never forget
the deeper truths of life. Easier said than done. The pursuit of money, power,
pleasure and all other obsessions in a post-tzimtzum agnostic reality so consume
our lives that we hardly have time for moments of truth, let alone for holding
on to them.
The tentacles of the tzimtzum
entangle us in a mesh that conceals even the fact that we live in a state
of concealment (the Baal Shem Tov calls it “double concealment”).
Yet, it is not an airtight
reality. We have many reminders of the inner truth. We have many moments of
inspiration. We have music and love. We have faith. We have the resonating
factor: That honesty resonates more than dishonesty.
And then we have our children:
Those gentle souls that remind us of our own innocence. Our children give
us a second lease on life: Through them we can reconnect and regain our own
3318 years ago a nation
had a collective moment of truth. A fleeting moment, but what a moment it
was! The Sinai moment changed the world forever. It introduced civilization
to the world.
Such are true moments
No coincidence that children
played a prominent role at Sinai. They were the ultimate guarantors that Torah
would be upheld and perpetuated.
Let your children into
your life. You may need them more than they need you.